Blessings in Disguise

I can only speak for myself, but please feel free to share your thoughts.  I always believe that everything in my life has happened for a reason, what's the reason?  I don't know, but I do know that it is for my well-being.  I will never really know what tomorrow brings, but I live it day by day.  It doesn't mean that I live it aimlessly because I know what's the purpose in my life. 

I can always try to make things happen, I can always plan out the course of my life, but if it's not meant to happen, then it's not meant to happen. How do I know if the path is right for me?  Sometimes my gut feeling tells me so, maybe through friends and family, there are times I don't know if I can give such a profound answer.  But what I know is that I have to make a decision of what works best for me in the long run.     

Back to the Basics

When people complain that their lives are complicated because things aren't or haven't gone the way they've been planned or orchestrated.  Take for instance, the psychology of the working world.  It's normal to feel that after we completed our studies, we all want the lucrative salaries, the corner offices with great views, the fancy job titles, those business cards that has our name and title on them, the expensive office equipments, and the competitive benefits packages.  The whole prestige of it because we all feel a sense of entitlement and that we want to get the respect from others. 

I remember when I was walking on the streets of San Francisco on a typical workday, I would see some in their business attire carrying their briefcases on the cell phone probably discussing business-related matters, and what's weird that I could see the intensity in their faces.  Could be that they're on their way to an important meeting with a sought-after client, or that they had to maintain things in satisfactory for their bosses.  Then after all that intensity was over, they needed to go get a venti cup of caffeine for that jolt to get them through the day.  If little things have gone wrong at work, they'd get all "worked up" about it as if it's the end of the world for them.  Some would even pull all-nighters just to keep afloat with things, not even knowing that they have been slaving away.

Then I thought, do we really have to go through all that?  Do we really need to seek after that prestige?  We tend to get all wrapped up in this feeling that we tend to forget that the number reason we go to work is to earn our wages so that we can pay our bills and put food on the table.  So maybe we ourselves tend to make our own lives complicated, not the surrounding itself.  CEOs are there to work for the same reason as their subordinates, it's just that CEOs jobs are more demanding.  Simple and basic answer, don't you think? 

My adolescent role models

Jane Austen happens to be one of my favorite authors because her main characters just happens to possess similar qualities that I still have to this day, and some qualities that I wish to have.  Here are whom I'm a combination of: 

Emma Woodhouse (Emma):  Loves to play matchmaker, she would rather live vicariously through her friends' love lives, therefore she has no interest in seeking someone for herself.  She has to rub it in to her married friends to remind them that they're no longer Miss (maiden name), and that they're now Mrs. (married name).  However, when it does cross her mind to find someone for herself, it just never works out for her.  But when she starts to truly develop feelings for someone, she shakes it off and just only acknowledges the relationship as a platonic friendship.   

Elinor Dashwood (Sense and Sensibility):  I'm a lot like her in many ways - practical, reserved, not very emotional about love.  When there's no hope for her, she lets it go and continue on with her lives.  She can be a bit jaded about it too.  She doesn't get emotionally attached so that she won't get hurt, even if it's unrequited love, she won't chase it.  When she's hurt from love, she does not show her emotions. 

I hope to someday meet my real-life version of Mr. John Knightley or Mr. Edward Ferrers, or possibly a Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy.  However, I do wish that Jane Austen wrote a book about a main female protagonist not ending up with a guy.  Jane Austen herself never married, and I'm sure she would be real good about writing a story like that. 

Updates

I apologize for my lack of updates.  Things have been going on more than what I've expected probably because I've been very preoccupied with things.

Career:  Been playing around with the idea of taking accounting classes 101 to boost my credentials and to progress in my career.

Hobbies:  I recently took up rock climbing, once I start, and I just couldn't stop.  I realize that I want to keep fit in ways that I'm really doing something.  When I want to run, I want to run around from one place to another instead of running on a machine that doesn't take me anywhere.  

Friends:  They come and go sometimes.  Some end up being acquaintances, some of them turned out to be very close friends whom I can always rely on to talk to, and some are just fun to hang around with.  I've reconnected with some of my old friends whom I lost touch with thanks to Facebook.  However, I'm so terrible in keeping in touch.

Chez moi:  I've been working on getting a theme in my living, dining, and kitchen.  I'm sure through time it'll all come to me.  :)

Upcoming trips:  Still in the works, and looking at great deals. 

Smile

Whenever I'm feeling blue, I just sing away my sorrows, one of my now favorites is "Smile"

Smile though your heart is aching,

Smile even though its breaking

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear may be ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying?

You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile